“Asking for help can feel like the hardest thing to do, yet it is the strongest thing you can do — and damnit, it is so worth it. You are important. You are valuable. You are not alone.”
After years of struggling with depression, I decided that life was not worth living and wanted to commit suicide. Just a year ago, I found myself at the darkest and lowest point of my life, which resulted in I hating who I was. That same hatred and weakness that I felt about myself on the night I thought about taking my own life, has now transformed into the strength that I recognize within me.
This experience has been the most difficult, but yet incredibly rewarding year of my life. I would not be where I am today without my therapist, who has assisted me in breaking down the walls of my cognitive distortions. My therapist has also given me a space to recognize my truest self.
I am deserving of love and support, and I withhold immeasurable strength. To my friends, and everyone I have met this year, you all have become my family. Each of you know me, love me fully and have consistently shown up for me when I was sick, struggling and believed that I wasn’t deserving, or that no one would be there for me. I have never used my voice to talk about my personal experience with mental health, but today I can stand on my own two feet and tell you that it does get better.
So many people silently struggle with mental health. It feels completely isolating, debilitating, and often times you can’t see the light at all at the end of the tunnel. The road to healing is not instant, as a year later I am still amidst the healing process. I have really great days, while others I can’t leave bed. Depression does not have to be something that stops you from living life, as there are so many people that have learned to live with it in mindful and healthy ways. Being gentle with yourself and knowing that it is okay to not feel okay all the time is so important. Asking for help can feel like the hardest thing to do, yet it is the strongest thing you can do—and damnit, it is so worth it. You are important. You are valuable. You are not alone.
Olivia is 21 years old and resides in Arkansas. She is a music lover and avid reader of her favorite book —‘Tender is the Night’ by F. Scott Fitzgerald. Olivia wants everyone to know that you are valuable and having open discussions about mental health has the power to deepen the human connection.
Zodiac Sign: Gemini ♡